Black GIrl LosT! part 1

Ok, so I am 26, black and living in America. The outcome doesn’t look to good for me, especially in a time of recession.  I was laid off my job about 6 months ago and that really pissed me off.  Why? It was terrifying.  Like many Americans being laid off this hits really close to home to say the least, but my first thoughts were “What do I do now?”  I was a leasing consultant for an apartment complex.  The only reason I see for them “letting me go” was to save money.  I was the highest paid leasing consultant there making $12 bucks and hours plus $50 bucks per new lease.  Some months I rented about 10 units so I guess that wasnt good business for them?  I don’t get it but the end result was I got canned!  I think I stayed in a state of shock for about 3 days untill I realized I gotta get off my butt and do something.  because I lived on property I had to find a new place to live within the week per the contract I signed when I moved in.  In any event I was no longer employed I had 7 days to vacate the premises. 

Wow, 26 years old, single, I was alone.  All alone.  The people at my job were like my family and I felt betrayed. I was mad and so hurt.   As I realized this I began to cry uncontrollably! I felt despair.  My heart ached and I just wanted to die. 

 What do I do now? No money in savings, the job didn’t offer 401K so I couldnt cash in. I was broke and homeless.  I knew I had $500 in the bank and 1 check comming to me.  Since I lived in Atlanta home of the strip clubs that was a thought, but I didnt want to have to take my clothes off for money! But I had very few options.  Of course I would be looking for a new job but until then what do I do for money, for food, and gas to look for  a new job?  I had very few options at this point.  At a time like this it is very easy for one to do things considered to be “out of character”.  My first order of business would be to find a place to stay….

Hello world! Have I lost my talent?

I am new at this blogging things. I have read about it and thought it would be interesting.  I have always loved writing but as I have gotten older I have lost my interest somewhat.  I hate the fact that I have lost interest in something I once had a passion for.  I actually believe that writing is my gift.  I have been searching for the longest to find my talent, and all the while it was right underneath my nose.  They say if you don’t use it you lose it and its been a while since I put my talent to use.  So here I am.  Trying to gain it back!  I hope that I haven’t lost my talent, but hey we will see. 

This will be just a tester for me. Comments, advise are eagerly encouraged. 

I think what took away my interest is a while back I had started writing a book.  My cousin and I were actually writing it together.  It was awesome, but as we were finishing up we left our only copy for a few hours in a cousin’s room and it came up missing.  We were crushed! Some one had stolen our book. We stayed up long nights writing that book.  We put a lot of hard work and to have someone come and take that away from us was so devastating.  From that point on I never really wrote anything else.  And that has been about 5 years or so.

I love to write because I tend to have a lot of things going on inside my mind. Writing helps me to put those thoughts into perspective.  I am not that really good at communicating verbally and directly with people either.  So letters have always been my way of expressing myself.  I even prefer to text people rather than call them.  I don’t know writing is just what I like to do!